On the eve of his sophomore album and a worldwide tour,Lewis Capaldiis facing the implications of being a superstar performer — who also has Tourette syndrome.
In an interview withThe Timespublished Saturday, the “Someone You Loved” singer, 26, shared that his health is currently in a precarious place.
“Mytic is getting quite bad on stage now,” Capaldi told the outlet. “I’m trying to get on top of that. If I can’t, I’m f—ed. It’s easier when I play guitar, but I hate playing guitar. I know, I’m a walking contradiction.”
The Scottish singer-songwriter firstshared his diagnosis last year, after noticing his shoulder would frequently twitch. He noted in a September Instagram Live session that “it happens all the time.”
“The worst thing about it is when I’m excited I get it, when I’m stressed I get it, when I’m happy I get it. It happens all the time,” Capaldi said of the involuntary twitches. “Some days it’s more painful than others and some days it’s less painful. It looks a lot worse than it is. Sometimes it’s quite uncomfortable … but it comes and goes.”
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Tourette’s involves “repetitive movements or unwanted sounds (tics) that can’t be easily controlled,“according to the Mayo Clinic, and it typically manifests between the ages of 2 and 15, with males being three to four times more likely to develop the neurological disorder.
For Capaldi, dealing with his changing health also comes just before a spate of tour dates and the release of hisNetflixdocumentaryHow I’m Feeling Now.
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In theTimesinterview, Capaldi also said he’s processing something else amid his breakout stardom: a case of imposter syndrome.
“It’s only makingmusic that does thisto me,” he explained. “Otherwise I can be fine for months at a time. So it’s a weird situation. Right now, the trade-off is worth it.”
Capaldi added, “But if it gets to a point where I’m doing irreparable damage to myself, I’ll quit. I hate hyperbole but it is a very real possibility that I will have to pack music in.”
Capaldi opened up about his experience making the documentary in a note shared on social media, revealing that he was"extremely hesitant” to take partbut now he’s “really looking forward to sharing it with the world.”
“I think because I seem quite open about a lot of things whether it be in interviews, on stage or social media people assume they know a lot about me and my life but in actual fact I tend to keep a lot of things to myself as a matter of preference,” wrote theGrammynominee.
Capaldi added, “Now that this film, two and a half years in the making, is finally coming out I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t wildly nervous.”
How I’m Feeling Nowdebuts Wednesday on Netflix.
source: people.com
