Kristoff St. John‘s fiancée won’t be at his memorial.
Kseniya Mikhaleva, who is a Russian native and currently lives in Moscow, announced on Instagram that she is unable to attend theYoung and the Restlessstar’s service Monday due to problems with her visa.
“It is with deep regret and sorrow in my heart that I make this statement,” wrote Mikhaleva, who gotengagedto St. John in September 2018. “For a year, I was the happiest women on Earth. That changed in a second. I still cannot believe that Kristoff is gone, so early, so unexpectedly, one month after our last meeting in Moscow. In the two years that we were together, he taught me so much – how to love and be loved, how to open the best in other people, how to help people, and simply how to be a good human being. We planned to get married; we had many plans in the future together. With him gone, I have no idea what to do.”
The Los Angeles County Medical Examiner-Coroner confirmed to PEOPLE that St. John was found dead at a home in Woodland Hills on Feb. 3. He was pronounced deceased at 4:02 p.m.
According to the Los Angeles Police Department, a death investigation took place at around 2:05 p.m. for a possible alcohol overdose at the 2300 block of Morea Way.
Prior to his death, St. John rang in the New Year with Mikhaleva and shared multiple photos of their celebration to Instagram, referring to her as “my love.”
After news of St. John’s death broke on Feb. 4, Mikhalevaposted and then deletedan Instagram post mourning the loss of her late husband-to-be.
“How did it happen ??? How ??? Why did you leave so early ???? and left me alone ….. I can’t believe 💔💔💔💔” she captioned a photo of St. John, who played Neil Winters on the long-running soap, kissing her forehead.
Mia, 51, previously spoke out about her troublingfinal conversationwith the actor.
“He called me at 11 a.m. and the first thing he said is, ‘Oh Mia, thank God you answered,” Mia tearfullytoldEntertainment Tonightof speaking to St. John on the morning of his death.
Mia then toldETthat St. John was disoriented and told her that he saw their late son.
“‘Julian’s at the door,’” Mia recalled her ex-husband telling her over the phone.
The soap opera star will be buried at the Valley Oaks Memorial Park in Westlake Village, California, on Monday, next to his son’s grave.
Julian struggledwith mental illness before his death, and some of St. John’s final social media posts reflected on his son’s suicide. On Jan. 21, St. John retweeted someone’s post about losing a child that read, “Grieving the loss of a child is a process. It begins on the day your child passes, and ends the day the parent joins them.”
source: people.com
